“Who are you?” She asked the girl on her phone wallpaper.
This was not the first time she had asked this question. However, it was among the less dramatic times when that question had popped up her mind. Once she yelled the damn question in a public bathroom with bloodshot eyes and a stream of tears flowing into an otherwise dry sink. Thinking about the difference in the scenarios made her smile, she was at a better place at least emotionally and that was way more progress than she thought she could ever make.
There is a lot about me that people do not know and a surprisingly wide scope of things that even I do not know about myself. In such cases, it is important to move from the known to the unknown. A lot like guestimation, you put together the facts then deduce an approximation of what else could possibly be a fact. What we know at this point is that the character described at the beginning of this piece is me. How we got to that point is a really long story and why I am doing this in the first place.
I am a content creator, a social activist, and a very passionate person. These facts and a few more combined have made me do amazing things like starting this blog which has been a blessing to me and you (my valued audience). Now that we have the facts we can make a guestimation and I will let you choose a conclusion on your own.
This blog is a haven for different thoughts, it became a community where we could connect with people and learn from the world. At this point, we have become a community that challenges each other to see different things, educate each other in love and share our experiences with brevity. I use this platform to share peoples’ truths and this has been the most rewarding experience of my life.
In 2018 I embarked on a self-love journey and in the process realized that I didn’t really know who I was and that was a barrier to truly loving myself and achieving my goals in advocacy. In the process of sharing other peoples truths, I realized that I too needed to be honest with myself and with my world. We content creators often feel the need to give our best to the world and we sometimes forget to give ourselves the best. I advocate for people to share their truths yet I am often too scared to share mine and that needed to change.
Write what disturbs you, what you fear, what you have not been willing to speak about. Be willing to be split open.”―
Telling my truths is hard, letting people in on my personal thoughts, feelings, confusion scares me. I think it is the idea of being vulnerable. I hate feeling vulnerable or weak (so I avoid it at all costs). That quote by Natalie Goldberg describes the type of writer and activist I have always wanted to be. I want to be brave enough to speak out even when it scares me and when it seems hard. I have successfully done this in sharing peoples truths and fighting for others but failed when it came to fighting for myself, expressing my feelings and telling my truth.
We are switching things up in 2019. I am taking my journey in social activism and content creation to a different path, one that will affect Diaryof1000girls. Over the next couple of months, I am going to share with you my stories, thoughts, and feelings. This means that diaryof1000girls will be going on hiatus. I will be moving my art to Medium for a while in a publication I named Theories by Jerry
I am very excited about this journey and invite you all to join me. It is going to be a mixture of long posts, short ones, quotes and maybe even reviews. I plan to share with you some of my thoughts, experiences, and opinions. “Theories by Jerry” will be an interactive and fun platform where we can grow, learn, and unlearn from each other while challenging each other to think differently.
Thank you all for an amazing 3.5 years. I can’t wait to see where this takes us and fret not because Diaryof1000girls will be back soon bigger and better.